I SEE YOU...

Satan is on your heels each and everyday. It is your DUTY to acknowledge him NOT give him power. When you KNOW he is the one behind the challenges you are experiencing stand boldy and say I SEE YOU!! 

This may not be Biblical, but I have even began to tell Satan thank you! Thank you for the challenges you throw my way because now I most assuredly know that I am being obedient to my God and I am within his will otherwise you would NOT be attacking me. Just so you know, my God is more powerful though so tread lightly!

Remember people of faith "Ephesians 6:12 KJV For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places" 

Tell your problems how BIG your God is, not tell God how big your problems are!

Bag Lady...

Are you healthy?

I mean really truly healthy? I am not just speaking mentally or physically.

Healthy is an all encompassing word. My definition of health is Mentally, Physically and Spiritually. All three parts make a whole. You can not be lacking in one area and think that you are truly healthy.

Being Physically overweight is just one indicator of what is happening internally. Yet, do not let people fool you into believing that because they are slim, fit or in physically good shape that they are healthy. There could be some other physical issues along with mental and spiritual issues that need to be addressed.

I personally am not healthy. I am honest enough to admit that I am 126lbs OVERWEIGHT! I have let life attack me one pound at a time. Every pound of weight that I am over, is baggage. Be it a bag of hurt, a bag of disappointment, or a bag of sadness. Many fail to realize that losing weight does NOT make you healthy. You also have to work on your inner self so you do not walk back into that cycle again.

I think of the song Bag Lady by Erykah Badu, I am currently she. I have began to make those changes in my life. As I work my way towards a lifestyle of TRUE health.

I also encourage you to take those desired steps. If you are not overweight, begin to assess your life; other areas of your physical health, mental health and spiritual health.

Take inventory, seriously. It is NOT easy!!!

I empathize with you because I am you. Lets have a healthier life together, Ok! 

Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper 

and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth. 3 John 1: 2 KJV

I am Light!

I have some truly wonderful women who "SEE" me. 

They see my Light. They refuse to let it darken or go dim. 

They love me so much that they invest their wisdom into me and pray over me regularly. You MUST have people who will NOT let you settle for stinking thinking. You MUST have people who WILL NOT allow you to view yourself negatively and will rebuke the negativity of others around you. 

Just two of those women are my Aunt Brenda and my cousin Joyce. 

Ask God to send you those people of strength that you want to mirror. 

• Those people who are overcomers. 
• Those people who success is not measured by the worlds standards of finances, material gain or popularity. 
• Those people who are humble and meek yet their strength is stronger than a jungle Lion. 

YOU are worth far more than your mind could ever conceive.

Know it. Believe it. Accept it.

Feed Your Soul

You need to find what feeds your soul. 

Whether that is music, scripture, books, visual art, something. Your something. 

Things that seed positivity into your thoughts, your spirit. 

Things that cause you to be introspective and convict you to change what you can and accept what you can not. 

Things that inspire you to love yourself deeper than another individual ever could. 

Things that calm you and allow the sanctuary of your soul to rest.

Things that make you smile -- and smile deeply.

For me, music is just one of those things. 

Gregory Porter new album Liquid Spirit, feeds my soul.

What feeds you? Find it - and use it daily.

Fawn 

Gregory Porter - Liquid Spirit

Keep Calm and Just Do You...

Many people are not going to understand the path you have chosen and to be honest you should not force them. What you should do is stay on your chartered course. Realize your passion and calling is not for all to buy into, those who do --will do so voluntarily and without request. Take the energy from those faithful few and continue to press forward to whatever goals you have. Even when you do not understand what is going on with your own life -- STILL stay on course.

For me, my course is being a mom. At the age my son is, it is not about me trying to pave new roads, find this super career, creating a new/different plan, or reinventing myself. 

I am 40 with a 6 year old - my focus is training and educating him, nothing more - nothing less. All things, I do must work around his schedule NOT he work around mine. 

Along the way, God will and has always provided for me miraculous opportunities for me. 

Never allow others to devalue your calling. Appreciate the challenges and obstacles set before you. Learn that you are no less than anyone else no matter what their bank statement may say, what they may be driving or where they may be living.

I want to thank God for entrusting me with such an important task to do for a phenomenal son. 

Smile and be proud of where you are in your life - no one fought the battles you fought, no one wears your battle scars the way you do - no one will appreciate your life more than you. Sometimes, you just have to sit back and tell your testimony BACK to yourself just so you can realize GOD has NOT forgotten you.

So where ever you are in your life, give yourself a pat on the back and say, "I made it!" You may not be at your mountaintop yet, but you are at it's summit -- which is just as good a view.

I hope this encourages someone today.

Blessings to you all.

Fawn

There will be NO revolution Televised...

I am not surprised or upset by the verdict.
Why? I know the America I live in.

The Trayvon Martin/George Zimmerman verdict is what breaks down race relations in this place we call America. It is what strikes absolute unadulterated fear in families of color AND interacial families. There are no words that our white counterparts can say that can ease the disappointment, hurt, saddness and complete pain that families of color across the US and World combined are feeling at this moment. 

This is not saying that White families are not just as upset -- It is saying that their fear is NOT the same as ours.

That is real.

That is honest.

That is the United States of America.

Quiet as it is kept, I have an inner Angela Davis/Sonia Sanchez - I have never been one to be quiet about what I believe and what is important to me. I am not a loud person, I am more the Administrative Revolutionary - meaning while there are people who are out on the front lines -- I am the one that is back at homebase maning the phones, writing the letters & articles, cooking the food and supporting the ones that hit the streets. It takes all to make change work in their own way. Just today I have two meetings I have to attend and one to assist a local pastor regarding a change in our city.

I stated the below to another friend earlier: The youth of today (anyone under the age of 40-45) will do NOTHING! The most they may do is some online petition -- otherwise by the end of the week it it will be business as usual.

There will be NO Revolution, the closest to a Revolution is folks watching the TV show. 
There will be NO real collective March on Florida and in other cities symbolically doing the same -- the closest they will stand for anything is in a line buying Jordans. 

These are the same youth that do NOT even know OR care to know the words to the Negro National Anthem yet enjoy saying the N-word a gazillion times in today's music and popping their behinds just because the mood hits them.

America, has today's African/Black American's right where she wants them, conditioned and complacent. Even more so than the Slaves and our parents generation. These youth believe everything is "cool:.  Just because now you can marry someone of another race and we live in a homogenous society and all seems well and blended.

Racism, and any other ism has never left the psyche of the American culture. It was just brushed under the living room rug -- only to be revealed when someone truly went to do some serious cleaning of that same living room. 

Just because we have a black President, just because there are Gay TV shows, just because America/The World is more Beige than years of past - does not and will NOT ever mean that People of Color are and ever truly will be accepted in this country.

We have learned to co-exist and accept the obvious and deal with situations ONLY to make noise when something as serious as this verdict occurs.

They are not like the youth in other cities of the world i.e Brazil, Turkey and etc who know true oppression and have risen together to let their government know that they want change.

*I say all this to say* 

What are you willing to do -- to truly take a stand regarding the direction of society - since for me this verdict is a true sign that you/we need to make a decision about the America we live in?