No more Comfort Zone

 "Today is the first day of the rest of your life". - Charles Dederich

By the end of the month today will be a blur to most, who am I kidding by the end of the week, it'll be a blur(smile).  However, if you get some time alone -- think about where you are right now and where you are going.  I know many people have written/videoed all these deep inspirational thoughts/sayings for you, so I guess I'll throw mine right in there with the bunch.

As you already know the end of 2010 was such an overwhelming blessing for me.  The job that I so passionately wanted, I was finally hired on.  My Director called me to wish me a Happy New Year, stated he is looking forward to working together in 2011 and emailed me my hours which are so perfect for me.  I so look forward to Monday!!  


Anyway I wanted to just say just because it is a new year does not mean challenges and adversity have remained behind in 2010, but what can be left behind in 2010 is how you think/face those issues. Everyday we rise we will not have the most positive way of thinking or feel wonderful - but it is in these days that we have to try even harder to not allow ourselves to become anxious and unfocused on our goals.

For me I got so caught up in continuously seeing what I was not and where I was not, that it was having serious  effects on me mentally, physically and spiritually.  Mentally, I felt so beaten and so overwhelmed.  Physically, I gained weight and on medication. Spiritually, I was completely off-track!  I kept measuring my happiness and success by what was occurring in others lives.  I really became blinded so much so that I was completely frustrated and ready to throw in the towel.  I was angry - and I mean real angry. Angry, I did not have a job, angry that I had gained weight (funny the foolishness you get mad at God for -- he didn't make me eat that food), angry I did not have a man in my life(when you are 30+ do you still call men boyfriends, LOL), angry I was not getting the grades I hoped for, just a big ol ball of anger.  It took my friend TNK to call me out one day -- and boy did they put me in check!  I was so mad at TNK I could have done something evil like work a root if I knew how, LOL!!  Funny, TNK  knew I was madder than a viper but didn't care. That brings me to another point, We all have to have that person or person's in your life who words will cut you like a knife even if it is to save your life! People's whose honesty is raw and unadulterated.  Now this just can not be just anyone but God knows the special person/people who you will be able to receive the truth from and not reach over there and strangle them when they are done.  Know this when they say something, you're gonna be highly pissed off when they are done but it is what it is -- sometimes we all need a kick in the tushy!

THANK YOU TNK!!

Today is a new day - usually I would be in Church - but I opted to stay home today.

I thought about how God truly blessed me in 2010 and has been carrying me for so long.  Some don't subscribe to a belief in a higher being or they like to reference it as the "Universe".  I just can not do that -- my spirit complete rejects that philosophy, I know for a fact that as the elders sing "If it had not been for the Lord, I don't know where I would be"  I can truly relate.  

I thought about what is my intention for writing this blog.  Initially it was just an outlet for me an online journal so to speak - however it has truly challenged me to be transparent with myself and those who read my writings. I have let that anger go and decided to really just let myself be me and just be free of all nonsense.  I believe we are all here to ultimately do two things and they are summed into two tasks: To Serve and To Educate.  I have always found myself in careers that have done both of these and I have also found that jobs that allow me to serve and educate allow me to be at my happiest and my very best.  

My new job definitely allows me serve and educate, THANK YOU GOD!

Serving and Educating are the cornerstones that I was raised on.  Mostly everyone in my family share these two characteristics and oddly enough their lives also evolve around executing these same beliefs.  I believe in letting my life be of service to assist, guide, and help in some way or another while educating you. 

So as I move into 2011, I promise to serve and educate you in some way.   I am coming out of my comfort zone and will no longer remain complacent with the way things have been.  I will make a concerted effort to change something each and everyday so as to push me further towards my goals.  Hopefully, my writings will prompt change in your life as I am changing things in mine.  

Have a Happy New year looking forward to what is to come.

Comfort Zone - Marvin Sapp: Here I Am Album